Thursday 20 September 2012
The Real life of an Idiot
Hope
My Life turns to me again
10th
grade:
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As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished
she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said “thanks” and shake hand with me. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
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As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished
she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said “thanks” and shake hand with me. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
11th
grade
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The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how she was feeling low for some of the mysterious reasons. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me sweet smile. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
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The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how she was feeling low for some of the mysterious reasons. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me sweet smile. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Farewell
Day
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The day before farewell she was somehow angry of me "off course for the same mysterious reasons" . She told me we would go together just as “best friends”. But not now. Everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she ignored me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I want to tell her, I want her to know that I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
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The day before farewell she was somehow angry of me "off course for the same mysterious reasons" . She told me we would go together just as “best friends”. But not now. Everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she ignored me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I want to tell her, I want her to know that I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
The
Best Day
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A day passed, then a week, then a month and then a year. Before I could blink, it was two years I talked her. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel image is in my heart. Then I got a call for me that was like "Phone from the God". I was like out of this world. We talked actually I talked I talked a lot and the process of phoning started again. She was in some college doing her Btech in some middle of the mountains. I saw her on facebook her charm had increased and in one word she was amazing.
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A day passed, then a week, then a month and then a year. Before I could blink, it was two years I talked her. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel image is in my heart. Then I got a call for me that was like "Phone from the God". I was like out of this world. We talked actually I talked I talked a lot and the process of phoning started again. She was in some college doing her Btech in some middle of the mountains. I saw her on facebook her charm had increased and in one word she was amazing.
The
Day when we meet
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The friendship was blooming and she said lets meet. I was kind of shy so I ignored number of times but at that day when se said you don't want to meet i can't ignored and i booked my ticket with the help of one friend.
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The friendship was blooming and she said lets meet. I was kind of shy so I ignored number of times but at that day when se said you don't want to meet i can't ignored and i booked my ticket with the help of one friend.
The Day came I reached the
place 5 hours earlier and each minute that passed was kind of a year the
moments are anxious and then she called me where are you I was kind of nervous
and told her wait there I am coming. We meet again she was with her friends but
who cares I meet her again.
Shocked
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The journey of the Indian
railways was giving me the feeling of
" UranKhatola". I would say that was the best journey i ever
had done before. I was thanking God numerous of times but God has something
else in his bucket might be God was jealous of my happiness after some hours
while going through her phone(she don't know that) i found one sms (Special
Message Sucked) that says "Happy
anniversary of our relationship". That was the shocker of the moment I was
stunned I don't know what to say. I can't help me in doing anything.
One feeling that came across my mind was" Lets Jump" from the train
but i can't do that also it's not that I was afraid but my stimulus were not
reacting and responding and for the first time I had the feeling of
"Pairon ke niche se jammen khiskana" . I was shocked. The Best Journey of my Life becomes shocker
of it. Time passes by and we reached our destination her father was their to
pick her she waved me and Left.
Hope
My Life turn to me again
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After that we talked on phone
but not on that topic and with passes of time our conversations comes down. I m
here Life is going Good but who cares she is working in some MNC's have had her
life much better than earlier we don't talk much now even on facebook when she
see me online she turns to invisible, I don't know why. I don't know what I am but I can't forget her,
my friends tells me she don't deserve you leave her hate her but i've learned
that one wouldn't make oneself lame or
cripple even if he don't run with those legs.
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